Have you ever felt like you knew
someone a long, long time ago,
Another place, another time, a
friendship of the souls?
Two people who share a bond for
reasons neither know,
A feeling that they were friends, a long,
long time ago?

Did they stumble onto each other by
pure circumstance,
Or was it fate and destiny that played a
certain hand?
Two souls intertwined, they are worlds
apart,
But the soul, it knows no difference, in
matters of the heart.

Somehow they are drawn together, fate
has brought them back,
Each living worlds apart, they journey
separate paths.
When this life is over, and a new life
begins,
Their souls will find each other, two
souls that we call friends.
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heyys..! i'm backk. a nice day outta there huh..? overslept today sia, actually should be out on a bball game[hadn't been playing fer ages] at 9am and its already the latest kayy. coz all of them 8am+ went to play ler and i said that i wanted to sleep more, so they compromise me, allowing me to go at 9. but but, i don't why, hahass i overslept and when i woke up, i called them. they already having their meals and had played their bball game ler. *aww* never mindd lars, i also don't like to be out in the sun mahs.

thus, chatting with meiting online. suddenly she soo angry sia, due to her father lars. her dad promised her to get her a new com but in the end broke his promise. hahss. and to think that i still ask her, " then you gort scold him anort..? " hehess and she of coz gort scold lars. what kind of world is this huh..? bleahss =X so we discussing where to go mahs coz damn siann at home. later on jinli wanted to buy present fer ****** mahs so we pei him go town. but like he pei us like that lo. all of a sudden at cine saw vic and sachhi. planned liao lars.

on the way walking we kept laughing mahs coz of meiting's face. her face damn farney sia, whenever you see her your laughing nerves sure rise till very high de. sachhi me and meiting laugh like 3 mad women norhs and then the guys down there lehs..? *diaoos* -.-" said that we siao cha bor and they don't know us. went to taka and they went to eat the jap food norhs.. sat there talk talk. spent alort of time sitting down there. went back cine . heyys me and meiting saw those cigarette boxes but is those cutie cartoon patterns outside de lars. hey we don't smoke kayys, never will we. but we wanted to buy, to put our neoprints and stuffs lars. damnn cutiee kayys, plus gort mashimaro some more lors. kawaii neh. (: $19.90 sia. at first we gort the urge to buy that on the spot, but later on heart will pain mahs, so we consider over first norhs. next time go there again then buy lars. (:

decided to head to lot 1. went there. i pei meiting go have our meals norhs. actually i didn't eat much lars coz i want to refrain mahs. vic they all went to buy ****** present nahs. later on we didn't gort a chance to go up coz we wanted to rush home to watch Sammi's movie on channel 8 bahs. after that only left me and vic on the lrt nahs. heng orh he pei me take petir one. hahss. (: and then chat chat nahs..

rushed home watch. but lehs i was there making my ears till no time watch ler. haiss. you know damn pain norhs. if i gort a chance to take down my ears you'll feel -.-". when i took out my hoop earings they were like kept bleeding profusely lars. i scared till nearly burst out. damnn painful till numb liaos lehs. after spending much time, finally gort them out. haiss. pain nahs.. :'(
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hmm. reflection fer today.. maybe should be a long one though. looking back at the past me, myself and i. the *xiaoshihui* whom everyone called. i was like always thinking :" blardiehyell.. i'm nobody in their eyes.maybe someone whom hang around with them in school only.. i'm always left out. i have to resign to fate..and i am gonna stop being nice to everyone already. it doesnt pay for my kindness.i dun get the same treatment. i m lonely lonely lonely....just like living in my own world..dark..quite..just me..ALONE..why everytime this kind of things happening to me.....god is making fun of me .. y things turn out out to be like dis..? why things turn out in this stage..? " that's just me. i'm always looking on the bad side. and these few days i was like behaving more like a human..? i don't know, maybe i asked fer too much. i'm greedy yahs. i admit. and i know its no one's fault and i don't blame anyone fer this. but i've grown up now, nort exactly saying i'm matured whatsoever, its that my thinking began to think to the optimist side kayys. grown up.. *abit* lars. bleahss =p but still as childish as before. wakakakss.

okay, the real thing. i was a lil' harsh and mean i think. if i did anything hurting, i'm willing to apologise. maybe i was too *chong dong* ler. I used to be like that too, an ‘I’ person. Spoilt, self-proclaimed individualist.. i must have things my way, stubborn.. I still am actually; I just try to hide it sometimes. actually i really don't wish to be mean, but i just can't stop my mind from thinking this way. but i think that its time fer abit of change bahs. i can't possibly let everything to go my own way right, and i wouldn't be the old stubborn *xiaoshihui* anymore. and i think everybody should also stop being `egoistical` bahs.

however, now i realise that you don’t own anything, that you are always somebody’s something, but you don’t realise that’s the whole point. You live you life to make someone else happy and people do the same for you. Keeping to yourself and that excuse of not wanting to add more sadness and worry for me is all a lie. Keeping to yourself causes just the same amount of worry to me and you’re just being selfish. What lies beneath, I don’t know. Don't shut the cover so tight.

and, i think that hatreds aren't supposed to b expressed in this way. hatreds will be gone soon. time heals everything. when it heals the wounds, the rainbow will be outta there in the blue sky again. everything we also must *kan de kai* look on the bright side of life, so that life will be easier. haiyos if everyday also must worry hate this hate that or nort, then life will be soo xin ku till can go and die ler lars. right..? and we will also grow up, our mentality changes. hatreds because of this, and that. sick and tired of *hatreds* ya.. who don't..? hatreds aren't supposed to b expressed in this way .. every single lil thing you do may cause someone to be upset ya. the same old saying:

-more friends than enemies are better- yahs.. memories will always stay fixed in our heart and when time passes and we meet new people on our way, we still remember those fondling memories of all of us. isn't it beautiful..? or maybe when you're picturing the memories, you will *grinn* too.. (: perhapps..

*Everyone has his good and bad side, it's not always necessary to look at the good side, the bad side can be part of a sweetest beautiful memory too.*

I guess I shall stop here today, I'm kinda spitting out crap.. there's still d n t tomorrow and i didn't even touch on it yet. die ler lars. suan ler. tata and ciaoos .. ! (:

`egoistical` => means believing that you are much better and important to other people..

+____ . [ [ - sshii hhuii - ] ] . ____+ 17 Oct 04 10.20pm